For once… I can’t express my feelings in the arts than I usually do. You know that I can’t express myself vocally, but I guess you’re a little surprised that I cannot write. And no, for once, it doesn’t have to do with the writer’s block, despite the fact that it’s still there. I really can’t say, but it’s an indescribable feeling on what emotions I have through my head as I write this.

We’ve been through so much… There had been (and there are still) obstacles that stand in the way. Up to now, some obstacles, we have managed to break through. Others, though, it’s beyond our control on how we can solve it. We can only wait in hope and through optimism that things will work out. After all, whenever we had problems, we had managed to pull through.

Already, it’s been three years… Three years…

I will tell you right now, I have no regrets. Being in this sort of relationship, a long distance one, I was really scared to enter such a thing again, especially when long distance relationships have little chance of working out. But… I wanted to take one more chance at this. I was afraid to open my heart, having my heart broken three times three years ago, but now…

I am finally not alone anymore. I can finally feel safe and protected, knowing that you’re by my side. I know that you love me, no matter what I say or do, or whatever I’ve done. I know that…

I can always wake up to know that you’re right there, that you’re right there to stay with me.

I can always laugh without holding back.

I can always run to you when something’s wrong.

I can always open up and have you as a shoulder to cry on.

But most of all…

I can always smile truly from the bottom of my heart.

Even if I can be violent, even I end up crying a lot whether it’s us fighting or something else… Even if I can be a pain in the ass at times…

Even though I can’t really express myself properly because of what the past has done… Just know that I truly love you, even though I don’t act like it.

But…

Thank you for letting me be myself around you.

And thanks you… For loving me. For that you are a very kind person to me.

I was able to smile and be able to love again, thanks to you.

Happy third anniversary, darling. I will make sure that… All of our promises will be fulfilled… Because I will work hard for such to come true…

I really, truly love you. And I’m here to stay.

Forever…